What am I looking for? (We're moving!)

I've been there, done that. Jason and I just bought a house, yay!
We're moving this weekend :)
It's gonna be so great not having to pay rent, having our own home. I mean, we've got a mortgage to pay, but we'll deal with it.

So here I am, home-owner... about to finish my double-degree, I have a loving fiancee, I live well and I have the most supportive family one person can hope for.

So why is it that I still feel empty?

Why do I feel so alone sometimes? Why do I feel like sometimes I don't exist and other times I feel like I'm the only one who exists. Why don't anyone understand me?

Why am I so scared that I won't live up to everyone's expectations? Or mine.

My psychologists says maybe I'm yearning for spiritual enlightenment, divinity from within. It strikes a chord. I have been looking for something all my life...
I was born a Catholic, decided to be Anglican (baptised and confirmed), but then dabbled in Wicca and Buddhism before giving up and admitting that as a Chinese descendant I wear Buddhist sandals, a Taoist robe and a Confucian thinking cap. (Add to that holding a bible).

He said when I'm ready I will experience peace within myself, bliss.

I want it so bad.... I want to understand...

I caught Jason unawares whilst he's drinking his morning juice. Beautiful backdrop... we just love the Aussie bush.

The view from our tent, looking up.

Our car and tent in the bush.

Camping after over 90kms of 4-Wheel Driving. It was raining and muddy, but it was a great trip.

The cemetary on the side of a hill.

Jason posing in front of some classic billboards.

The town of Walhalla. Really nice, quiet town in Victoria. If you go there you have to visit the Gold mine nd the cemetary, very interesting.

At Walhalla Fire Station.

Burnt trees on Moe-Walhalla Rd.

Moe-Walhalla Rd on the way to Walhalla on our camping trip. The Eucalyptus tree are all burnt from recent bushfires. It was quite eerie driving through here imagining the flames that must've soared through.